Hermes

The film tells two stories, that of the man Hermes, who claims to love boys, and that of the film maker herself. Her questions about desire join both stories, as well as creating a mirror effect: the desire of the adult to be the child he once was.
a self professed pederast whose only satisfying relations endure with those before puberty. An interview shot in video verite fashion comprises the main of the film: “I wanted to tell my parents my story, so I wrote a book, I wrote for six months. I gave it to them and they finally wrote me back. They considered me worse than a murderer… I try to read the body language so I don’t hurt the boy. Boys whom I’ve hurt don’t belong in my dream. I want a boy who lives out his sexuality. Of course, I want to expand this area as much as possible, where our ideas meet. For example, I don’t want to be fondled by a boy if he feels pressured to do it… These relationships, these happily-ever-after Hollywood relationships are faced with a limitation, namely, puberty. Then the child dies. He’s suddenly someone else. It’s like a flower dies… It’s nice to play with a little cock. I’ve got something else, a hanging sausage. And this myth I keep chasing is that one day a young boy or girl will take me across that magic frontier of puberty.”
His narration, delivered by an actor to preserve Hermes’ anonymity, ranges from self justification, philosophical conjecture, guilt, fear and childhood reminiscences. In wrathful indignation he recounts how his two younger brothers were taken away from him, for fear they too would become gay, though he later alludes to a sexual tryst between them.- Mike Hoolboom